i'm going through a rough patch. i have difficulty motivating myself into doing something constructive and concentrating on doing it. i just feel like i drag myself from one place to another because of various necessities. i doubt myself, my future, my sanity. i have been caught up in these depressive/negative thought patterns, which i have been trying to avoid by distracting myself, like nothing actually really matters in the end and everyone you love dies. it's been like that ever since i lost my grandma (exactly 3 months ago) and it makes it really difficult for me to concentrate on my studies and have hopes for the future. "what's the point?" i keep asking myself. it's like adolescence all over again. the idea of losing my parents makes me wanna run and hide, though you can't really run away from time. so my body gives psychosomatic reactions, which makes matters only worse.
i just need some peace.
I only saw this post earlier. To cheer you up I'm going to upload those pictures now. You're right, nothing really matters. That's why it's important to make the most of what you have and tell the people around you how much they mean to you. But it's also important to help yourself get the most you can from what you've been given - that's where your studies come in. And you doubt yourself?! Come on! How many languages do you speak? You can write in perfect English. Maybe your Turkish is terrible, but I doubt it! And everyone doubts their sanity from time you time - you'd be mad not to. Sorry to hear about your grandma.
ReplyDeletethank you.
ReplyDeleteand the photos did cheer me up :)